1. |
Proud Of Me
01:39
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When you try to be so proud of me, I blow it
You said we could be happy, I don’t know yet
I think you want to be so proud of me
You can’t be too proud of me
Because I’ve got all these words, all this time
They could be yours, they can’t be mine
Because I’ve got all this stuck, in my head
In my bed, I’ll stay
You met the wrong person at the right time
How could I love you and not want you at the same time?
I just want you to be proud of me
But I’m not so proud of me
Mandy, You’ll always have me
I’m sorry I can’t find the puzzle pieces
Of the life I should believe in
Mandy, I’m glad you’re happy
Now that you’re gone
I made a joke of my life
Why aren’t you laughing?
If you’d just hate me
Then I, I could stop acting
Cue the end credits in black and white
How could I love you and not want you at the same time?
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2. |
Try Anything
03:30
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You’re so sure
Of a life abjured
Of the pain we earned
Of the love we spurned
I’ve heard your words I’m sure
You’ve got the power to frame this your own way
I’m positive, I’m sure, I’m negative, I’m okay
You’re stalling out no matter what I say
Try something, Try anything
All my life I’ve been the one
Who has the worst things to say about myself
The best life, the worst life, I can’t tell
All the fear I’ve used to build my hell
I’m not sure
You might’ve been the cure
For what I can’t endure
For what my thoughts ensure
I’ve heard your words I’m sure
I know I’m not who I thought I would be
But each day, each dawn, I know I might find me
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3. |
So Scary
00:51
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Hope you still like Hitchcock
Hope you still like Mary Berry
Hope you find everything that you need for yourself
Because life without you’s scary
(So scary)
Summer in the city
You’re not by my side
For the late night swims and the morning light
(So scary)
And if that’s my future, will I be all right?
Would you prove me wrong?
Could you stay the night?
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4. |
Nights By The Phone
01:09
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Call a witness to bring this order
What’s the reason I’m still waiting?
I’ll give you time to think this over
What’s the reason that you’re waking up?
I spent my nights by the phone, all alone
Thinking, “What do I do to make it ring?”
I spent my nights by the phone, all alone
Thinking, “What do I do that makes me this way?”
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5. |
Nothing Else Matters
04:26
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This is my depression song
About the numbness I feel
When I should feel something like your love
Like the times when I didn’t need to feel alone, but I did
Every sound in the city screams your name, out of tune
Out of sync with my memories of those days
Someday I might control my health
Try not to give up on myself
Reflect and recapture
Feels like nothing else matters
Is your faith in me shattered?
Feels like nothing else matters
I won’t be alone
When I think of this place
Your hand in mine and what’s after
Feels like nothing else matters
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6. |
Pretend to be Happy
02:58
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My life is ending
Tell me what was it like?
Did I keep it all together?
Inside? Outside? Most of the time?
This time next year I think I’ll come back to life
And find my next new beginning with hope, with doubt
Without you I can start over
I make a better living than I’ve ever made before
And live a worst life cause I can’t fight the confusion at my core
Find new street under my feet
And think that means starting over
But there’s something in my head that says I’m never getting better
My heart beats a little now
Does that mean I’m still alive?
My heart beats a little now
And I’ll be all right
As long as you’re happy
I’ll pretend to be happy
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7. |
Dead Weight
03:07
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Complacency trumps honesty
Compromise integrity
I’ve been trying desperately
But I can’t think straight
All of my anxieties
Clash with your abilities
Wrecks my credibility
And all my best days
I miss you more than I can say
You’re the light in my life and I’m a bad day
What’s to blame for this inequity?
Alcohol or chemistry
My overwhelming pleasantries
And all of me is dead weight
You told me they wrote a song
I wrote you a better one
Take your places everyone
You’re bound to my fate
(There’s a ship in the harbor
With your name written on her
Sinking down a bit farther…)
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8. |
The Old Smoke
02:45
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It’s midnight in London, first of the year
But I can’t escape my biggest fear
From Kentish Town to Whitechapel
I’m in favorite city, I’m all alone
Because somewhere on the road to Highgate
I really start to wonder if I’m living out my fate
A Julian Barnes novel I’ve read before
What’s missing is someone to share this with me
You know that my someone you always will be
It’s summer in New Jersey
Family appears
With every introduction I wish you were here
From Paterson to Ocean City
I really start to wonder if you’ll ever be with me
A Frankie Valli song I’ve heard before
I’ve heard this before
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9. |
Pop & Politics
02:29
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I wish I wrote protest songs about bigotry
And phobias masked as policies
Dismantling capitalist legacies
Denials of our human rights
I wish I wrote songs that mattered to more than me
And inspire generations yet to be
To rise up, fight, and march the streets
And take the power from the top
But sha-la-la, it’s another pop song
About my love for you and how that went wrong
For three whole years I tried my best to show a different view
And found that every song I write, I write for you
I wish I wrote songs like the ones that let me know
They keep us down with the boot while they put on a show
About American dreams achieved and grown
If you just work enough, you might get your own
I guess I just can’t sing
I just can’t write
About oppression that we see and learn to fight
And use my voice to sing something to change your life
But the words change from the start
Just let wait here in the background
Until I know what I’m trying to say
You know I know I’m not one to make things easy
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10. |
Because You Know Me
03:47
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Because you know me
You know what it’s like
And why I can’t get it right on a Saturday night
I can’t go out
I can’t stay home
Because with them, with you, with me
I’m alone
Every time there’s a crush
There’s a rush, there’s a lie
Every time we got close
I got scared, wondered why?
When we listen to Bruce songs
I sing ‘em to you
Everything’s all right
When you’re gone, sing along
I’m still singing for you
Each and every night
Color in all the lines
In your heart, leave some space
Use the shades of the night
Take us back to our place
I died last summer when I saw your face
In a strange context, in a better place
There’s still one thing I can do to show you my love
Say goodbye forever
Let you move on
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11. |
Because I Miss You
00:43
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Because I miss you
I don’t know what to do
I just keep walking ‘round in circles
Hope I run into you
Because I miss you
I don’t know what to say
I know a simple song can’t right my wrongs
I write anyway
But there’s a hole in the plot
A leak in the obvious
I missed my chance to say I wanted to make time for us
It’s all I had to do to make it right
Right, I get it, I blew it when I had the chance
I know I was wrong
There’s a time, a place, where I could be better
Please don’t say that it’s gone
I miss you every day
In a million, billion different ways
You’re all that I can see from ship to shore
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12. |
On Letting Go
02:21
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You’re moving on
I’m moving up and down
Try not to see you when you’re not around
Play different music on the stereo
A book I wrote on letting go
Can’t feel it yet but know that this is right
Try not to see you in my dreams at night
Your photograph won’t give me vertigo
A film I made on letting go
But if there’s anything you want, you got it
That’s my promise
Made so long ago
If that means that I watch you go free
Please believe me
I want you to know
That’s why they call it love
Cause I’ll be standing by
To be there when you’re scared and you don’t know why
That’s why they call it pain
To live with my regrets
And know that you will always be the best
And know that you will always be the best I said goodbye to
And when it’s right
You can look back on the pain
And look back on the love
You learn in letting go
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Big Bad Tucson, Arizona
"Big Bad technically hails from Tucson, Arizona, but musically they are closer to Gainesville pop-punk. Songwriter Tim
Milner creates absurdly catchy and lyrically mindful songs while cutting the fat and keeping them under 2 minutes each. In your face distortion and gang vocals blend perfectly with shared lead vocals and harmonies." - Diet Pop Records
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